Back on Track

I was going to make this post a good one and wait a few days but what if someone found themselves in my situation and thought they were alone. I crashed on the 1st day of the VLCD (very low calorie diet). I packed my lunch and my snack. I am counting this as my first round although I started the diet a month ago. I just knew it was going to be easy. It was not. I found myself really hungry the 1st day. I ate my 1/2 of grapefruit and focused on my water. Even took a walk but I was still hungry. I ate my lunch which was steak and cabbage. Since I am use to getting hungry around 2pm, I just knew that would hold me until I got home. I ended up having the other 1/2 of grapefruit because I was still hunrgy. By the time I got home, I had two strawberries (this is cheating to me because I already had my allotted fruit). That didn't work and my fish wasn't baking fast enough. I tried a celery stick but it had a bad taste. Next thing I just got a couple of chips and crackers. That's when the bad cheating began. I gave into my food addiction and just wanted that hunger feeling to go away. I didn't even try yesterday (Friday) because I was gone all day. I won't mention what I had but it was not in the protocol at all.

I feel really bad. I am doing a short round because of travel and want to make the most of it. My body is going through the motions. Today I have done good so far. I wanted to go to the gym to this dance class I love and the International Food store afterwards but knew I would be starving so I opted to go to the store for a few items. International Food Stores normally have all kinds of fish and they will clean them for you. Their produce is usually cheaper too. I'll have to do that another day. I chopped up some cucumber for a snack and had that and a apple so far. I'm about to lay down and watch some tv. It is about 80 degrees outside and I feel bad enough for feeling fat and hot now. I don't want to spend my summer like this. I will get through this bad time and make progress. I really didn't prepare for the hurdles before but I need to move forward.

According to the charts, I have attained 1% of my goal. It's a brighter way of looking at the situation. With all the talking I did, I want to press forward.

Current Weight: 215.2
BF: 38%