Why I Want to Lose Weight?

Since I always remember being overweight, I have pretty much always felt uncomfortable. Most overweight children have the hardest time when they are in school. I always remember being made fun of although when I see bullies now I didn't have it that bad. By the time I made it to high school I would never go to lunch. I always felt that everyone was looking at me because of my weight. That mentality has carried me into adulthood. I pretty much hate large crowds. It could always be worse but I always think people are looking at me and monitoring how much I may put on my plate. I remember a few years ago I was coming back from a fire drill at work and some people took the elevator. This one smaller woman said something to the effects of that is why they can't lose weight. I have no idea why people think we choose to be overweight. If I had to choose anything, it definitely wouldn't want to be overweight. Besides being more at risk for diseases, you almost lose yourself and your self-esteem. My personal challenge is getting it all back.