Frustrated & Upset

I'm not sure which of my emotions is winning today between frustrated and upset. I was in a pretty pleasant mood when I woke up. I got dressed and said my waist has to be smaller because I can see down in my pants. Plus I brought a size 18 jacket and was worried I might have to leave it unbuttoned but I didn't. I felt empowered as I left out the door. I guess I have to mention I also had an interview this morning with 3 managers. I thought to myself one has to beleive in me and give me a chance. I get through the interview and by afternoon I was told my grade level and experience just didn't match. At least that is how I took it. I'm sure there is something positive out of the situation but I feel shattered. It feels like rejection although that probably was not the intention. So now I have to struggle with my weight and with work experience. I know it will get better, both will. I just need to vent a little and move on.

It just makes me more thankful. So many diet challenges passed me by but this one gave me the opportunity. Maybe since there will be others watching, it will make it easier for me to succeed. I'm destined to make this a life changing experience.