Reality

I'm trying to have a huge reality check. I have evil and good sitting on my shoulders today. One is saying, "It's such a short amount of time, you can do it." The other is going, "This is too hard. Take what you can get. Just lose something." The water and I are staring at each other and my mind is filled with all sorts of food choices. I'm a little hungry but not starving. My ground beef has been in the refrigerator since last week.

I think being single is starting to get to me. Plus I am an only child. I don't want to say lonely because I feel content. At the same time, I do notice a difference when I'm around others. It moves my concentration off of food. I'm trying to do more things but even going to the gym now seems like a struggle. Mainly because I feel so exhausted. I am starting to think I suffer with sleep apnea, which is another reason to lose weight.