Specialist Results

I never mentioned about my visit to the specialist. Well he was asking about my weight loss and told me he hates to nag me but I really need to get it done. This I know. I could have serious complications from this disease and it could lead to blindess. I could have broke out in tears, not so much because of the possibilities, but because I want to lose weight. There are so many things getting in my way and I can't seem to get a handle on it. I'm not sure what small steps I need to take to accomplish this. Everything seems like a huge leap sometimes. I wish the fellow challengers had a way on contacting each other outside of the blog. I am assuming that eithe people are taking a break or may be having difficulties. I understand not wanting to share with the world too. Been there, done that.

Yesterday I did better but crashed when I got home. I suck at cooking so my meat is always dry. That's why I hate heating it up. Then I felt really guilty for not going to the gym. I feel better when I go and it takes my mind off of what to eat, what I'm not eating, etc. I almost wanted to cry because I did not go. To me, this is a sign of a serious issue. I know I wasn't a bad person or a failure because I didn't go. I may need to go right from work because I have too much idle time between when I get home to when the class starts.