What To Do?

Let me start by saying yesterday I tried the celery soup and it had too much pepper. So that was unsuccessful. I was drinking tea throughout the day and my water. Basically I ate around 2pm, an apple. Then about an hour later I had my spaghettiless sauce with cabbage. I definitely know it was over 100 grams of meat but I ate it. I think I am more satisfied with more variety at my meals or something. When I was done, I was fine but like 2 hours later I was hungry. I ate some chicken later on when I got home and another piece of fruit. I went to bed about 11pm and woke up at 1:15am. I basically stayed up until four and then got 2 more hours of sleep. The result? I woke up hungry and irritable. I was actually hungry at 1:15am but I never eat that time in the morning. One of my friends isn't on the diet but says she maintains her weight by spreading out her meals. My problems is that nothing is appealing enough for me to spread out. Could I possibly need some sort of cleanse? It is so bad that I was reading a magazine and saw this new drug. I was thinking maybe I can get that and definitely won't want to eat. That is not a solution. The other day my deep inner self said to call it quits. But I will never be happy unless I get my eating habits under control.

I honestly dealt with this even when I was cutting calories. I told my doctor I eat the way I do because when I try to do it healthy I am still hungry in the end. This was about a year ago. She told me to bring in my food chart. I honestly know what I can and cannot eat. What I can't figure out is why I want to eat certain things and why others never satisfy me. I would rather eat a happy meal than to eat a healthy meal, still be hungry, and end up eating all the wrong things still. Is that a classification of emotional eating? I'm not eating other than being hungry.

If anyone has ever fasted for a day only to get to midnight and think I can't go to bed until I finally eat something, that's basically what I feel like. Grab a cup of spinach and still feel the same? What to do?