Where to Start?

I'm starting to think this protocol has some type of evil attached to it. Although I'm being funny, it seems like ever since I even heard about HCG I’ve had to deal with all sorts of issues. I didn’t realize I hadn’t posted anything since last week so I better get moving. Anyway, this week I was starting a detox. I have no idea what I’m doing since there is so much information out there.

Anyway, I normally get up about 6:30AM. About 9ish I ate some oatmeal. I can’t say it was immediately but I felt funny, weird almost. It wasn’t a nauseous feeling or weakness, and definitely wasn’t hunger so I ignored it. An hour later I still felt the same. By lunch time I decided to go to my car and take a nap. I felt slightly better afterwards but by then my body and I were fighting and I was determined to win. I said I’m not hungry so I’m not eating. I did eat some fruit but that was about noon. By 7PM I was still fighting and not eating. I didn’t eat until 8:30 and by then I kept going back for more and more. I felt like I couldn’t stop. Then the guilt set in and I was right back where I started.

The next morning I was depressed and almost in tears. I feel like a strong person but when it comes to eating I am weak. My mind plays tricks on me and it is frustrating. I have said it was the food but when I am free to go I am not grabbing for the stuff I say I want. As soon as I think lose weight, I almost feel like I’m starving. So I must admit I had taken an appetite suppressant to avoid the hunger. I took one the day before and didn’t feel weird. It wasn’t a jittery feeling either. I don’t take these regularly and never experienced any weird feelings before.

To lead onto tomorrow’s post, I sent an email to Cindy and as she read through my cry for help, she made a list of what I stated my issues are and what they aren’t. It gave me a great idea to add to her list and focus on one problem at a time. Then move on to the next one until it is all crossed off.