Why the Anger?

I was suppose to clarify my anger issues the other days but then I had another one and that seemed the least of my concerns :-) For anyone doing the HCG protocol, it can be easy but it will test all kind of emotions. I guess because you are focusing less on food you focus on more of what happened to make you overweight in the first place.

I'll spare everyone the exact details of how I got angry in the first place. But, to make a long story short, I felt my boss misinterpreted my intentions. I am one who can multitask and neither task suffers. He basically told me because I wanted to volunteer my time at other programs at work that my priorities were not straight. But, I checked the schedule and picked things that would cause least effect on my work or none at all. So now he says I can't participate until late last year. It took me about 3 days to figure out my real reason for being so angry. I was disappointed that I could not participate because I do benefit from the opportunities. But, I was angry that my good intentions were made to seem like they were something bad. Then it made me think about all the other times someone misconstrued my intentions.

It's like I started this challenge. It was suppose to be the answer to all my problems. It has taken this long for me to realize it isn't the protocol at all. Food can be my enemy and my friend. Sometimes it is an issue and others it is not. I'm frustrated with it because I can succeed at almost everything else. I would probably rather switch struggles. At times I don't want to post because I know others are thinking I'm not being serious, not trying, etc. It's why I never take kindness for hearing to quit. Quitting solves nothing and neither does ignoring my problems.

But, I know there are some at the finish line waiting for me. It counts the most.

Thanks for reading.