Encouragement

I'm doing much better this time. I feel slight hunger but it is bearable. They aren't hunger pains which is a big difference. I received this message for my positive momentum yesterday and wanted to share:

"If you made it through the first day, you can make it to the next. Take each day one at a time. If you need to, take each meal at a time. Do what works best for you. Even a small step can help you meet your goals. Keep reaching for your goals, believe in yourself and you will be successful!"

8/25 Update

I will try to post a picture Friday. I finished the load and was at 221.4. At first I thought I was hungry because of not loading properly. But for two days I was hungry as usual. I get this idea that I would cut out the meat because it was too dry anyway :-) and do protein shakes. Well the protein shakes were too powdery. I haven't tried mixing it in hot water yet to see if it helps. So basically my blog hasn't been updated due to being sick and tired of having the same issue. Then over the weekend I did my injection differently and found that I was no longer hungry. Then again yesterday.

I was down 1.8 lbs. this morning which is a sigh of relief. I feel like I have cured my hunger issues. On the other hand, I wanted to be mad at others trying to lose weight, outside of the challenge of course, that are so judgmental. Sure, I don't like half of the food but it is much easier to deal with when I'm not hungry. But then compassionate me said, weight is my struggle and maybe they are struggling with something else that I have no problem with.

I'm going to try to post Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays from now on.

3rd Time the Charm

I will be loading the weekend and starting the VLCD again on Monday. I'm confident that I will succeed this time. So much for reading all of my book. I got far enough this week to learn I need to take things one step at a time. At least try to make some sort of sacrifice and build upon that. This week has been a good week emotionally. I feel that I have been growing tremendously as a person on the inside and now want my outside to follow.

Monday after I sent my post to the blog, I visited a friend. She was asking how I was doing and I told her my struggles. She shared with me that sometimes a weight a person has is more related to baggage and not food. I can really agree. I think that is why I am so hurt trying to lose the weight and find something about myself that I have hidden. Yesterday, I saw someone who had the gastric bypass and looked great. Then today I just feel like I am much happier since I switched to a new office. I feel much more valued and that makes a difference.

I'm learning there is a time for everything and the timing isn't always what I want. I have to, need, and must make progress. Otherwise, I will be on youtube with my lips stapled together :-)

Back in Town

I'm just writing a quick message just to let everyone know I am still here and breathing. Also, I haven't stopped thinking about my weight loss goals and all of your successes and trials. I planned on starting the load today but know I will be going out this weekend. I better celebrate my birthday while I'm at it this weekend also. I had to be realistic and knowing that I would be too tempted being around food so it would be better for me to put it off a couple of days.

I know last week I found myself not eating. Basically I waited until I was hungry. It's definitely a habit I need to break. It was so bad one day last week that I my hands were trembling picking up the fork. So I need to break the meals up into smaller ones. Sure, I never feel full but maybe that will help also.

Fighting the Right Battles

Each week I make sure I record Joel Osteen on tv and each week I hear another message that I needed. This week it was about fighting the right battles. I have spent so much time with being hurt and have been trying to convince nearly everyone I meet that I am this great and wonderful person. I only do it because I always feel like people develop an image about me before they even say hello. I need to trust that those meant to be in my life won't need convincing.

I have had months of diet trouble. While I am disappointed in not being successful, I feel growth mentally. Now if I can diminish the growth around my waist :-)

As Joel always says, become a victor and not a victim.